 | It was 4 years ago, when I met him... I didn´t really pay attention, I just thought he is the new guy at school, well some hours later he looked at me and it happened.
He was perfect, goodlooking and had beautiful blue eyes.I couldn´t get him out of my mind since that day. we got friends after some weeks and hang out with our friends. we have partied or just cooked together. it was a great time and I loved him everyday more and more, and I knew that he knew what I was feeling for him...
Well we all had our problems and sometimes we didn´t meet so much anymore and so on... he had a bad situation in his family and it was like if someone was destroying him inside...
He didn´t care about his life anymore and was just doing stuff which wasn´t good for him and I couldn´t stand that, I couldn´t eat anymore for some weeks and I was crying all day long and stayed in my bedroom all alone, I just couldn´t see him going through all that... he didn´t deserve it.
3 or 4 months later he got back to normal, well almost everything was getting back to normal and it was now 2 years that I have knowand loved him.
We were all at a good friends house and were chilling together... we didn´t talk to each other, I don´t know why but it was a strange situation...
So after some hours I went home and called my friends who were still there (at the friends house).
while I was talking to my best friend on the phone I decided to tell him what I was feeling for him....
So he got on the phone... I talked to him and then I needed like 20 minutes to tell him everything... I was shaking and I got all dizzy it was like if he was standing infront of me.
So I told him that I loved him, I started to cry and broke down... it was horrible, it was like if someone is killing me!
I will never forget that...
Since that moment we hadn´t talked for 6 months, after that we were doing like if nothing happened, but I still felt like if he was caring about me in a way that I can´t explain...
Well it went on like this, we were friends and so on and at the night of our prom we were just looking at each other and we didn´t talk... later when I had to go home I went over to him and wanted to say bye, but I started to cry because I was he was sad... I ran away and when I came back to finally say "Goodbye" he went away and cried...
But 5 minutes later it had to happen... it was over... we said bye and I cried all the way home, at home in my bed till I fell asleep...
I didn´t see him since that day... and it was 2 years ago, and I can´t belive it... I thought I got over him... I thought that I´m ready to fall for someone else if there will ever be someone....
But then I had a dream and it was so perfect, it was like if he was there for real... it was so painful and I recognized that I still love him more than anything else in the world, I love him now for 4 years and I have never been with him...
I really don´t know what to do...
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