 | It’s been a year since I last saw him and I miss him so much. Everything was fine except when I met this guy. Eventually, it seems like I have loved the right person at the wrong time. To give you a summary, here’s my story.I’m Haella, a simple college student who came from a middle class family, yet I dreamt to give them a good life. I used to believe in fairytales that each of us was destined to someone else. But everything has changed when I saw my parents quarreling. That was the worst nightmare of my life. After that night I learned to accept that there’s no such thing as happy ending.
Days, weeks, months have passed, I have moved on. The first two weeks of the class as a freshmen student was great. I decided to focus on my studies and joined different campus organizations. I set on my mind that my future is in my own hand so I have to work for it. At first I find it hard to adapt with my environment, new faces, new places and of course new friends. My house is quite far from my university so I have to wake up as early as 4:30 am. I even skip my breakfast just to maximize my time. There were times that I can’t get rid of the traffic, and sometimes it takes up to 30 mins. So if that happens, I have to walk as fast as I can so I would be there on time. Normally, I reached the campus for about 30mins. ahead of time. It was an everyday scenario, that’s how my life goes.
The first semester has passed, not knowing that I’m starting to fall with my so called "best friend". He was my classmate since 1st year college. He was totally different from others. He learned to appreciate simple things about me and accept me for who I am. He taught me to be happy in spite of my problems, to cheer up though I failed the exam, to laugh even to the corniest joke and of course to love myself. In exchange to that, I did the same thing. I tried to comfort him on his darkest days. He served as my inspiration in my studies. Every single minute with him was a special moment. There were times that I want to tell him what I really feel for him but there’s something that prevents me from doing it. I’m afraid he doesn’t feel the same way.
Until one night, me and my bestfriend had a serious talk. Unexpectedly, he opened up his feelings for me. I was so shocked. My knees were trembling with too much nervous. It was a mixed emotion for me. I don’t know if I should be happy of what I’ve heard or to refuse from his offer. Finally, I’ve made up my decision and chose our friendship. He admitted it and told me to just forget about it.
After that event, we don’t see each other for a long time and it hurts me so much. Every single day without him is killing me. It’s as if a part of me is missing. Until, our campus had a party, and I saw him. I can’t explain the happiness I felt by that time. When I was about to approach him, I saw that he was talking to a girl. Yes… she is pretty, much prettier than me. She’s a famous girl from our university. That night ends without talking to him.
Couples of months have passed, and I’m on my 3rd year. One day, I’m taking up my midterm exam when my cell phone vibrates. I have no choice but to continue answering the questionnaire. After 3 hours, finally, I can now read my text message. Believe it or not, it was my “best friend” who texted me, saying how much he missed me. It also includes that he wanted to see me, and he will wait on our campus plaza. He quoted that his happiness depends on me. I failed to go there because of my exam. Since that day, I never heard of anything about him.
One morning, a rumor has been widely spread in the campus. It was said that the most famous girl in our university is pregnant and she will be getting married soon. I’m quite disappointed because despite the fact of being blessed with beauty, she wasted her future. But that’s life, who knows maybe she was really in loved with her partner.
And so engagement party is getting near, everybody was invited. Of course I should be there to see the prettiest girl in our campus. It was already picture taking when I arrived because I have to finish first my theses. The girl was perfectly beautiful, she looks like Cinderella dancing with his prince charming. But when I saw the guy he was dancing with, my tears start to roll down on my cheeks. It was him my “bestfriend”. I can’t stay there any longer so I run as fast as I can. I have to get away from them. It really hurts as if I want to die.
I cried and cried but still I have lots of tears. The night before the wedding, I’m walking on my way home suddenly a guy joined me. Again it was my bestfriend, we talked for about an hour and he told me something. He pleaded to me that if I accept his love for me, he’s willing to leave everything including the famous girl. And if I tell him to stay he wouldn’t be on their wedding tomorrow and just stay with me for the rest of our lives. But then I refused, it’s not because I don’t love him. I just have enough courage to let him go for a meaningful reason. I can’t afford to destroy a family because of my selfishness. And for me, that’s Love!
Written by MarLeah
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