 | Here's how my stories goes. I'm Haella, a freshmen college student coming from one of the popular university in our country. First day of class was great, I easily find friends. One of them is Eunice, she's my closest friend of all.On the other corner of the room there was this guy, who called my attention. He seemed to be too quiet despite the fact that he has good looks! Well then, I start teasing Eunice to him. Days after days, weeks after weeks. They seemed to be closer to each other. Until one time I have noticed that Eunice was starting to show affection to him. And I was right with my conclusion, she's now falling for that guy.
Eventually, this guy became closer to me. We go together, we eat together, we hang out together and sometimes, he even joined me in my activities, Until the point that we shared each other's problem and lovelife conflicts. The worst thing is that, there was this weird feeling starting to grow up each and everyday that we're together. I tried to keep it by myself and never let him and Eunice know about it. I pretended to be one of the silly classmates who kept on teasing them.
One day, Eunice and I talks about crushes. She opened-up to me that he was sure of what he really feels for that guy. Hearing it from her lips is killing me. I just decided to offer him the guy to be his bestfriend to limit the stupid feelings I had. And so we did, he immediately accept it, we became "bestfriends" but this time even closer, not knowing that Eunice begun to noticed what instore in our special friendship is. I never stop pretending though it hurts me so much.
One time, I and the rest of our basrkadas decided to hang out in a billiard hall near our university. We had some liquor in our table. I was there sitting beside my bestfriend and beside him is Eunice. See, it looks like love triangle! Hehehe. What a stupid idea from my friends to pass the candy from one mouth to another, talking by myself, “I've guessed I'm on the right position, Hahahaha.” But "Oh my God", I thought it was the best one. I forgot Eunice was just on the left side of my bestfriend. Minutes have passed, it was my turn already to pass the sinful candy to my bestfriend. "Shocks" my heart beats so fast as if it will explode, and the scenario happened in just a snap!!! "Gosh!!!" Now it was my bestfriend who will past the candy to Eunice, as usual I have my biggest smile while teasing them. "Sh*t" it was not just a pass, it's a kiss!!! And it takes a minute. I can't afford to see with my naked eyes that scene so I shift my attention to my other friends. But my mind keeps on thinking it. Since nobody knows about it, I just put all my burdens on the drinks.
Little by little they (my bestfriend and Eunice) were talking in a mild voice. I can't hear what they're talking about because of the loud sounds. Don't wanna hear it but my eagerness to know it pushed me to listen. Until I heard a single phrase from my bestfriend saying. "I just don't want to hurt you!!!" It made me more curious, yet I'm ashamed to asked them. Till I saw a tear from Eunice's eyes. I asked her "why?" but she don't bother to answer my question. Eventually she was really crying. I want to comfort her as her friend but I hesitate for it seems that she doesn't need my shoulder anymore for she's lying on my bestfriend's arms. It was a mixed emotion for me, first. Because don't wanna see my friend crying yet I can't do anything to ease the pain she’s feeling that moment and second. It's like somebody’s stubbing me on my back seeing how sweet they are.
Suddenly, I explode. I moved away from them and sat on the other chair. Holding a glass of alcoholic drink, I begun to cry, to scream, to drink one shot, two shots, three shots. Until I drop dead. Then one of my friend approached me, trying to comfort me, but they can’t do anything to stop me from crying, for he is not my bestfriend! How I wish I was the one by his side, crying on his shoulder, breathing the same air, sitting on the same chair, showing affection and care. “If only”.
My bestfriend noticed that it almost flood because of my tears, so he approached me and hold my hand asking me ”What’s wrong? Why you’re crying too?” I don’t answer him a single word, I just stare on his face and say. “Nothing! I’m just practicing how to make my tears fall fast”. As he left, I just whispered. “You don’t just know anything and it’s better if you know nothing!”
I heard Eunice calling my name, so I immediately faced her and ask “Why?” She just answered “We have to talk later”, as always, I pretended that I don’t know anything and said “Why? Do you have problem? How can I help you?” she just nodded. I noticed that my bestfriend is not with her anymore, he moved on the other chair, and then I received a message from him saying “Bestfriend, why? Just remember that I’m always here for you.” Again, tears start to roll down on my cheeks. That message reminds me of my position in his life. Yeah, a bestfriend, “Just a bestfriend!” After the drinking session, Eunice hug me so tight saying ”Why you didn’t tell me?!” and I answered her with teary eyes. “No need!!! As long as you’re happy, then I’m happy too”.
After that emotional talk, I went home without letting them know. On my way home, I can’t think well, my head is aching because of too mush drink as well as my heart I can’t breathe well. I heard my bestfriend calling me from my back. I just continue walking as if I heard nothing.
The next morning, I greeted Eunice with a big smile as if nothing happens. I told her to forget about it and just to take care of my bestfriend, the way I can’t do. She cried in front of me while saying he told my bestfriend regarding his feelings and then he refused to accept Eunice’s love for him, because he doesn’t want Eunice to be hurt! Up to now, I can feel how much Eunice love my bestfriend so I tried to stay away from him though it’s killing me. I just tried to be the ordinary person who cared for him a lot. I’m willing to give up everything for the sake of friendship! Just to see my friend happy.
Written by MarLeah
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