 | I woke up after a long trance of falling thoughts
Every tear represented a reason for my sleepless night
I followed your path, your scent, and your sporadic kisses
I believed in your word and ended up trusting your secrets
You fell in me like rain in a desert; your existence became the center of my attention
You’re the forbidden apple I ate incessantly, the sin whose venom numbed effortlessly
Did you care at all for me? Did you think about the subsequently possibilities?
There shouldn’t be any doubts, nothing left for me to figure out
And here I am, feeling I’m the one to blame regardless of your mistake
You didn’t think about what we agreed in, went ahead and copulated anyway
With my heart in your hands it isn’t easy to face, acknowledge and much less accept
There are no explanations that excuse this brought to life worst case scenario
When the one who loves unconditionally has been taken advantage of
When a soul that’s held on to what’s been told, it’s deceived without any remorse
There are no valid explanations that ease hurt when you’re attacked from behind
When the feelings of those who afraid to end alone, keep quiet to only be torn
With a voiced silence wrapped in cruelty you lied to my face and had no necessity
Like water you’ve become transparent and I want to run, hide and anxiously quench in it
A loyal friend and occasional lover in the end, obviously didn’t matter
My sincerity and the honesty I respected you with, evidently didn’t mean anything
Yet, here I am afraid, uncertain and unwilling to lose and shamelessly falter
I wonder what your reaction would’ve been if it instead had been me
To risk more than just a friendship, to have caused this consequence
Would you still be there, knowing I betrayed and endangered your wellbeing?
I can’t abhor the person I came crashing with, I made my bed and there I will lay
Sometimes I’m saddened by the choices I’ve made, but with you... I have no regrets.
By E.T.
Written by Eddie
Submitted by Eddie |  |
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