 | As I looked you in the eye for the last time
I knew you were a different person.
The things that we once felt were gone,
And I felt as though I was in prison.
Giving in to your every need,
Hurting myself in the process.
Not listening to my instinct
But instead listening to what my heart says.
I knew that we weren’t meant to be together,
And that one day it would all be over.
I didn’t think it would even last this long,
You couldn’t even see me sober.
You think that I don’t understand,
And that you can take advantage of my love.
I’ve let you do it before,
But the last time was enough.
I get so mad when I think about you.
Because of the things you’ve said to me,
Everything you’ve done, and everything I’ve done,
Everything you couldn’t see.
I was so determined to have you in my life.
Nothing was ever good enough for me,
Until I thought I found what was right.
You never really cared about me,
Even though you always told me that you did.
You told me that you loved me,
And that you even wanted me to have your kid.
But when the time came,
And you had had your fun.
It really did almost happen,
But I am too young.
You told me to get rid of it,
And that’s just what I did,
I took the life of an innocent
Because of something that you did.
I really fell in love with you,
That twisted soul of yours
I made the mistake of holding on,
And now I see,
I was wrong.
Wrong for wanting you,
Wrong for thinking you would change.
Wrong for even trying,
And for waiting every day.
Your boys all thought I was crazy,
For even talking to you.
They would tell me about all your girlfriends,
And everything that you do.
They threw salt on your game,
And you got mad when you found out
Tried to make it my fault,
But you’re not turning this around.
Everything you said was a lie,
And really I knew.
I couldn’t accept the fact that you didn’t want me,
But I wanted you.
But I am over that now,
And I’m putting us in the past,
We will no longer speak,
This poem will be the last.
You’re not who you once were,
The man that I once loved.
The man that would always talk to me,
The man that always came to pick me up.
You use emotions,
That you know are strong.
Making everything sound okay,
Knowing that everything is wrong.
I wanted to help you,
Become the man I knew you could be
But the man I thought I saw,
Was a young boy and he’s twenty three.
To know that you don’t care
And to actually catch you in a lie
Makes you look wrong,
And I will no longer stand by your side
I’ve gave so much time,
All the time that I had.
To be with you,
You were supposed to be my man.
You only wanted me for one reason,
And that reason was obvious
For every time I’d get to see you,
You’d seduce me with a soft kiss.
I never once gave up on you,
I always felt love in my heart.
I just couldn’t let you leave me,
I couldn’t let us be apart.
Your friends made it clear to me,
That you will never change.
I realize I was totally wrong about you,
And that I don’t need this pain.
You’ve crossed the line now
You really want too far.
I’m your girl,
But she’s in your car
Textin on your phone,
While I’m doing something for you.
Something that Isn’t me
But for you I figured I’d do.
That’s disrespectful,
And I never act like that toward you.
Yeah I can be a nag,
But there is a reason for what I do.
If you can’t see it now,
That my love for you was right,
I don’t even want your love anymore,
Not today, not tonight.
Never again will you do this to me,
I will not let my self sink that low.
I will not allow you to do this,
I will not play, stop, and go.
So this is good bye now,
Until when ever becomes then,
And maybe if you grow up,
We can at least be friends.
Written by Jessica Stoffel
Submitted by Jessica Stoffel |  |
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