 | I meet this guy in unexpected time...and funny situation. I was been through a heartache of last my last boyfriend so me and my cousin have fun in the a disco tech. I was really drunk and I was dancing and dancing to all people I meet in that place.I meet this guy there I don't really know how it happened but it end up I sleep over his apartment. We saw clearly each other in the morning when we woke up and knowing each name. He get my number...but I never expect he would call me and see him again. I thought it will be just a one night stand. But we see each other open when we both have time. But time comes I was fallen in love with him, but I can't show it to him. I'm shy and afraid that he would disregard me, he didn't say a single word also who I am in his life since then. We just keep on dating but no string attach to each other. I really need disperately to have someone who really love me, a real boyfriend and a true relationship, I'm longing that for all my life. But this guy is out of my reach, he's not even close to person I really wanted to be but my stupid heart still wanting him. I keep my distant to him so I wont be hurt so much. But of course I didn't told him and I want him to love me because he really does. So, in my mind I put it that he just my special friend. I try to date other guy and so I meet one then again. Whew!!! our story is like a turnido so fast... I thought he is the answer to my prayer, he is exactly the person I really dreamed to be with. I say to myself..."GOD, if I'm dreaming please dont wake me up"... but life is so cruel...doesn't go the way you wanted to be. I was woke up in that dream one day he broke me up after 3 months together. I was surprised and shock! It feels like the whole world was fall on me. So heavy...I can't breath, I can't sleep. Another failure and heartaches, and pain. I need to stand up again, move on and let go. I call my special friend again and told him what happened, I never see him, but I heard on his voice that he was disapoint with me. I explain with him, it's okey if he keep away from me at least I told him the truth. I go on myself with out guys in my life... I won't expect anything anymore. Cause the least you expect it won't come but if you don't expect it happened. Surprisingly he call me and want to see me again. So, we back to normal again. As usual, still mysterious for me if he had a feeling for me or not. But he is sweeter than before...I can feel his warm touch to me and he had a sweet caress that I always miss. My feelings for him is still the same though ever since, didn't change after all its amazing!!! I don't know why? I can't explain...just there...I just feel it! I don't know what's the reason of all this happen to me. What would it bring to me. I don't know if we had a happy ending though...I don't know if I really belong to him or he belong to me. If I could only choose my destiny, I want to be with him for all my life. But always...things doesn't go the way you wanted to be, all you have to do is wait and see and prepared the things that might happen your way. Only God knows.
Written by joacee
Submitted by joacee |  |
LOADING