 | I’m sitting here listening to some music and holding the phone by my side, just in case you call. In case you change your mind and decide that you want to talk. There are so many things I want to tell you.So many things you need to know. I just don’t understand what went wrong. I remember the old days and the way we used to be back then. I reminisce through past times trying to find a place where we went wrong. I guess it’s everything. The fact that I met you too early, the fact that no one wanted us together, but I always believed that if two people truly loved each other, they could conquer all hate. I’m not so sure about that now. Do you remember all those days we spent hiding from everyone, and all those days I spent in your arms? Those fifteen minutes with you meant more to me than anything in the world. Just being there, leaning on your chest, feeling your heartbeat made my life. My every day. You were always on my mind. Day and night. Back then, I couldn’t have even imagined spending my life without you or any minute of it. But I was never afraid of that because I knew we were meant for each other, and I had all the faith in the world that nothing was going to come between us. Now, all I have are memories and flashbacks to remind me. All that love and all that passion disappeared. All the happiness left me along with you. Baby, don’t you know how much I loved you? Do you have any idea how much you meant to me? I was willing to risk my life to be with you. I wasn’t even sure whether I would see you the next day, after getting off that bus, but I took the chance, because back then, I lived for the moment. I always felt so safe when you had your arms around me and that‘s all I needed in life. I knew for sure that nothing and no one could hurt me. I had everything when I had you. You were everything I dreamed about and everything I ever wanted. I was so happy just knowing that you loved me. I felt like I could do anything with you by my side and it didn’t matter what others thought about us. Nothing mattered but you and me!! I didn’t care what they had to say because I knew that I was the luckiest girl in the world - I had you. I was so happy when I got the chance to see you. I was so grateful to see your smile and hear your laughter day after day and I knew I was blessed to have a chance to look into your beautiful eyes and see myself.
Now, all that is just the past. I can’t express all my feelings on paper or type them out, but I’m trying, in hope that you will see this someday, and know that there is someone out there who still loves you and considers you her angel. Baby, I know that we have been through some really bad times and some really hard situations, but when you look back, you’ll see that it was all worth it. We loved each other very much and we still do. That love that we shared is still alive. October 28, 2003 does not have to be erased from our hearts. For now, we have to play by these rules, but in a few years, I promise you that I will come back to you, and we will get the chance we deserve to make this right. I told you once that I believe in us and you know how strongly I believe in faith. I’m not giving up no matter what they say. They think I should hate you for some reason. There is no way I could ever hate you. I love you, still, after everything, and I don’t blame you for anything. I know that we don’t have a chance right now, you see it too, so for now, we should just be friends. I don’t want to re-live past heartbreaks, and I don’t want to try all over again. I just want to be your friend until our time comes. In a few years, baby, we will be those inseparable two people we used to be. Just hang in there. We will make it, I promise.
Written by Jelena
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