I miss you
so much that I miss him too
I miss your embraces
your senses of humor
and how you would run to me
and pretend you don't know them
he used to do the very same thing
and dear god
how I miss you more
it has been two years
two years with varied feelings
people came and left with pieces of my heart
that is all right
for losing bits and pieces of me
is nothing compares to the crack he created
now you come and step by step
you are bringing back the past:
the loving and the doubting days
how I miss and hate those days
Every man that walked through my sentiment
is a first
and I considered him my first heartbreak
at the moment
you are not a first
I do not have butterflies in my stomach
when I see you
the same way I did not
when I faced him
I miss you dementedly
the same way I missed him
I feel at ease when I am wrapped
in your embraces
the same way I felt
when I was with him
I know I am guilty
charged with the ignorance of comparing
you and him
however
I am human
I can't help doubting the resemblances
and being curious about Fate
plain old fate
such a dear friend
just loves to play with my heart
I miss you again
and again I wish time can go faster
so tomorrow would come
because I want to see you
be warmed in your hold
and to see your smile
that brightens my day
I want you to be the first
the one that mends my heart completely
and stays by my side
I want you to convince Fate
and let the resemblances be faded
I want you to choose
and I will wait
for I know you would never
never hurt me
You might think that I am going nowhere
with this train of thoughts
you might even think that
in my eyes
you are just his replacement
however I want you to know
I loved him
dearly
by putting the past behind
he is nothing
but simply a guide
for me to see my true self
and the feelings I have
for you
I miss you
and I love you