 | We knew each other for years, but never really talked up until 2 years ago, we became great friends, really close and talked about everything, he was a year younger then I, but I didn’t care he still great. He had a girlfriend that was ok because I was with his brother, things were great but there was always a strong connection between the two of us, we didn’t start to act on it until a year later though, he was having troubles with his girl and I was no longer with his brother. It was a messed up situation that’s for sure. One night he told me he loved me out of blue and kissed me, and that’s when all the pain and the complication started, we loved each other but it was so hard for us to be together considering the circumstances.Things happened between us during the summer that changed our friendship more in to a friends with benefits in a sense. But we still love each other, I lost my virginity to him about a month ago. But things between us only happen very rarely even though we see each other everyday. He’s too messed up in a sense to see what’s really in front of him. I know he loves me but he’s scared to be with me for some reason, and I cannot figure out why. In a sense I don’t wanna be with him ‘cause he’s in to the hard drugs and the alcohol but there’s something about him that I just cant let go of.
I’ve talked to him so many times about us but it never seems to click he never gives me an answer just gives me looks and grins that makes me so much more into him. But I’m sick of waiting around for something to happen, I wanna move on but it’s so hard when he’s the only thing on my mind. I know what it’s like already because I dated somebody that it took a year and half to get over but I did it, I just don’t understand with all the time that has gone by I cant do the same with him, I need to get over him because if not the only thing that will happen is the same things like before. Maybe someday we will be together, but I don’t wanna have to wait around just because he’s unsure of what he wants. I’m 19 years old and I need to move on and stop dwelling on the past and look forward on what’s to come.
Written by kdoll16
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