I go mad with a blade
its brilliant
I love doing it
its my onli true realese
but I have a hell of alot of scars
and I have loads of councellers and stuff that are trying to help me with all of my problems that I have
and get me to stop but I wont because they couldnt possibly understand how f*cking good it feels
its deeper than drugs its more phisical and sentual in a way
just the sence if blood, like your realeseing somthing deep inside and you feel so alive...
people wouldnt do it if I didnt feel good
its the same with everything in life
people wouldnt do drugs if they didnt like it
I smoke and drink because I like it
I get f*cking crazy and wierd
and dress the way I want because I like it
I f*cking cuss and swear and be violent because I like it
f*ck yourself up
but have as much f*cking fun as possible
to block it all out
all the screaming all the hurt
all the usual deppressing sh*t that I have
I dont always cry, I just get angry
punch someones face in
kick the sh*t out if them
show them how much sh*t that im going though
but they couldnt possibly know or understand
goodnight sweet prince of darkess we shall meet again
said that a few times to my razor blade
but its too buff to resist
so I f*ck it again
it f*cks me
I feel good
my f*cking life
and thats all there is to it.