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By DevilsLilHelper
10.12.2005
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	Ok I don’t know if yell will like this but if everyone else can put their stuff here I figured this is a good place to write how I feel. Ok so about a year and a half or so ago I met this wonderful guy we started off being friends just chilling and stuff.That was in the springs. That summer I was in Toronto we talked a lot I remember waiting for him to get home and come online so we could talk again. I told him love you in a non weird way (sort of my thing) then like 2 months if that later he was like him- Mel I have to tell you something me- oooo do tell him- I love you we have only bin friend for a little but we hardly know each other (cant remember exactly how it went) da da da and then he’s like but every time you say I love you in a non weird way I just want to say I LVOE YOU. Me-confused and scared I didn’t know what to say I just giggled and said ok a few days later I think it was he asked me out. I didn’t know what to say so I said sure. I didn’t love him the way he loved me but in time it grew to be the same. 7 months later it was Christmas I was madly in love with him all the while thinking he was in love with me. I mean he was the one who committed to me. over the 7 months we fought a bit(he cheated and I took him back) but never really much we were happy and stuff Christmas came we did our thing bought each other gifts sent them he lived in Ajax and me in Piston about 2 and a half hours away. He called all the time his family (kept his mom) loved me his little sister and I had formed a "gang" lot of. She was so cute and funny and she got along GREAT with my niece. I couldn’t have asked for a better time with any other guy. After Christmas I was on his msn account and met this guy named Matthew. Matthew and I started talking we really liked each other he was such a nice guy funny smart cute etc. Dan the guy I was dating knew we talked and stuff. He was kind of jealous anyone could see but I’m not the time to cheat. I mean flirting (not doing anything but talking) isn’t cheating. so matt an I had this thing going he was going to get rich and buy me a car it was just a big thing with us joking around and stuff Dan didn’t get it he blew up on me and got all mad. We broke up for like a couple days lot of and then were back together. Matt and I were still great friends he asked me out a few times of course I didn’t say yes I said "lemme think about it" he knew after a few days of no reply that it was no and he knew I was committed to Dan he respected it but we had fallen in love with each other. February came my birthday being the 9 and Valentines Day being the 14 Dan comes down the 12 and we had an amazing time together. I was so sure we would have sx in fact I was hoping we would. it would be my first time and his too... it didn’t end up happening we made out and stuff but that’s as far as it went n e who not to long after he started accusing me of things again. he started hating me and getting all angry and stuff I didn’t like it then one day something HUGE happen and he accused me of doing in. he called and called and I yelled and yelled I said I hated him and stuff . I couldn’t figure out if he loved me why was he being such a dck. we ended up breaking up but I still loved him so much. He swore to me he loved me but then like 3 months later was with another girl I wrote a few poems and said a few things I didn’t mean to some people. Now months and months later he tells me he still loves me but can’t be with me... All the while me still talking with matt and still madly in love with matt. Dan tells me some gibberish and basically tells me that if he and his girlfriend break up I can be the rebound girl... and ask me to still be there. What do I say? I don’t know anything. I date a few people but never say I love them because that word just makes me want to puke. It took me so long to trust and so little time to loose it. I’m not a girl who trusts people and he knew it and blew it and now makes me feel shtty. the gist of this story is what do I do? do I wait or do I leave and tell him basically fck you, I mean Matt has bin there for me through everything and I can’t even tell him how I really feel I just tell him I kind of love him as a friend please HELP. *Written by DevilsLilHelper* Submitted by DevilsLilHelper

Ally

1086 days ago Reply

Ya dont wait for him he is sayen ur a back up thats not kool at all....thats sayen if he doesnt get his way ur always there u should be wid matt he carez for u and ur not a back up 2 him....i kno itz hard 2 get over sumone u love but if he is gunna treat u like that F*ck him

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