 | OK it all started in senior high school the last term of grade 11, there was this guy who wanted to like me since we were in the tenth grade but I knew him from the seventh grade and I never really got to knew him to give him a chance, then me and him got close.But really I had a boyfriend who and me were going since the tenth grade. My boyfriends name was Andre and the other guys name is Martin, so me and Andre our relationship was always a little shaky you know, and me and Martin were always good friends. All three of us were in the same home room, Martin had a girlfriend by the name of Ashley so then there came a point in time where me and Andre broke up and me and Martin got together, Martin dumped Ashley to be with me I liked Martin alot but I LOVED Andre to death, but yet me and Martin still were together and me and Andre stopped talking we felt that since the relationship seemed to be over then so was our friendship. After a while like about 5 weeks, Martin fell in love with me but I loved Andre but I also began to have strong strong feelings for Martin but didn’t want to actually say the big "L" word because things for me was already complicated as it was, so then one day me and Andre began to start talking again and I found myself giving up more of time to him then I gave to Martin, which was wrong because me and Martin was going and me and Andre were just ex's, there came a point in our relationship where I was on the phone with Martin (my boyfriend) and Andre (my ex boyfriend) would call and I would tell Martin I gonna call him back ‘cause Andre on the phone, do you see the irony in this, so then after that I decided that I wasn’t over Andre and I would just stay single for a while, then Andre said he wanted to get back with me and I didn’t want to get back with him to make him think that anytime he’s ready he can pick me up and drop me down when he's ready, I’m gonna be honest at that point I did have strong feelings for Martin but I was afraid, afraid to be hurt again, afraid to start over again. So I decided to stop talking to the two of them, so then school closed for summer break and me and Andre got back together AGAIN! I didn’t know why ‘cause from the last time I lost so much love for him I guess I did it because it was something I was use to, them I hears that Martin and Ashley got back together but yet Martin still told how much he loved and cared for me and how he still waiting on me to love him. So when school opened we were in the 12th grade and Ashley was in the 11th, I was afraid to tell Martin that me and Andre got back together because I knew that he would think that I broke up wit him for Andre but really it was nothing like that! So then me and Andre broke up again and me and Martin got closer and Martin and his girlfriend grew further apart as me and him grew closer together so then Martin and his girlfriend broke up and me and him started going, this time around I fell to deep in love with him, then that’s when it all started. Martin and Ashley still use to talk and I didn’t have a problem with that but then he told me that he was afraid to tell her me and him was going because he was afraid of what she would do or say, I was hurt ‘cause she didn’t know we where going so she still talked to him like he belonged to it hurts so much, this went on for a couple of weeks until one day I told him he had to choose between us and he said that he loved the two of us but he loved her more and for now he choose her, once that was said I was deeply hurt but I still wanted us to be friends we still was just as close as before, then I started hearing things about him, then one day out of the blue for no reason everything changed, all the calls stopped, all the talks stopped we rarely spoke to each other but yet he keep telling my friends that he loves me more than anything, with his girl he treats her way better than he treats I mean I know das he girl but me and him were best friends and I know his girl doesn’t like me and she has told him to stop talking to me but considering the fact that we were friends I didn’t expect him to listen. All of Martin’s friends don’t like her and they all are more than gudfriends to me! So that brings us back to now, Andre talked to me the other day for the first time in almost three moths and he said that he missed me soooooo much and he wants to get back with me and that he loves me soooooo much, but I didn’t know what to do I mean to be real I know Martin loves me and I LOVE him too to death but yet him and Ashley going, and they seems like they are bond together and I didn’t wanna ruin that but I just love him so much. I didn’t know whether to wait on Martin to see what he will decide to do, or just forget about him and move on wit my life, and find someone new. Can someone please tell me what to do, I mean I LOVE Martin to death and I really and honestly thinks he loves me but Andre I just love him ‘cause he was my first so I gonna always have that love for him, but I am deeply and strongly in love with laffy. I really didn’t know what to do, I am tired of talking about that, I just wish and pray that he would realize what a bad influence she is and that I am a good person to him, so that me and him could get back together and I could show him how much I love him, like with Andre oh God I love him sooooo much but I also didn’t know what to do about him, please help me!
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