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In love with a gangsta

Oh how hate being in love with a gangsta he gave me a cute lil boy @ age 15. I moved in with him, the 1st day there he beat my *ss I could'nt move it was the night I came home from the hospital after giveing birth to his son.This beating me up sh*t went on for 3 months till finally I left him. He went looking for me like crazy a day of feb.14th. he would always be drunk and I never went out. He choose his Latin King Brothers over his family (me and my son). He was never around to take care of us he was always out in the streets doin dum sh*t now he been locked up since Dec. and I'm out here with a almost 2 yr old son workin my job going to school and it's hard 3 of my girls pasted away they RIP up above they be wachin over me. They was only 17 yrs old. I live with my father but I hate it, He trys to touch me my own father. Now that my baby daddy's locked up he regrets everything he did to me he wants me back but I dont want him, I think im confused! all I know is that im still in love with that gangsta.


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Ashnia
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wheres ur mom?!...ur dads sickkk...and move out...but I doubt u can get a place...but do sumthin to leave him...maybe u shuld go to a councellor...u need BIG help
 
DiyMpleZz
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wuT Yur SaYin Is CoMpLeTe B.S AsHNia!!
dis is ALl U KnoE bout Dis Hyna!!! NUthin Else!so Dont B ALl StuPid BouT it!
MaYb Her Mom Aint Der Fo A rEaSon ANd Dont Doubt...She Can GEt A plAce!!!!
She DOnt NEed HElp ok neItheR Do I i AM 15 And Have A Beautiful Son!! nd imma in luv Wit A GanGsTA!!ND WUT
 
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It's your fault for being with him in the first place... women should have higher standards for men.
 
Erika
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listen mama I think that u should fallow your heart if u think he'll change and u want to get back with him then go ahead but if u think he won't change and u don't wanna get back with him then don't and if u wanna try geting back with him for a few weeks or month and see if he changed or not and if u see that he still the same then leave him for good and rent a room mama fo real don't stay there wit yo pops how he gonna try and touch u wow yo own pops nah ma get up on outta there u working get a room u need wats best for you and your kid u mostly gotta think bout your baby he's gonna need a father there but it will also affect him if he see's his pops hiting his moms lets just hope he really did change I know one thing for sure when a n*ggas locked up he learns how to appreciate sh*t and life and people and they really do change so lets just wait and see I was going out wit a gangsta to but when I told him I was pregnant he and that I was gonna keep it he told me that he had left and dat he was'nt coming back till the mid 2007 season and that I was crazy I just coursed him out and told him that I ain't need him and that he's not a man to grow some balls I said mad hurtful sh*t to him now am 3months pregnant and it's been a month and few weeks that he have'nt called me or nothing so whatever I know something though for sure when I give birth he gonna call me or come see his kid and he probably will try to get back wit me but guess what as much as I don't wanna get back wit him for the *sswhole he is I have to cus I can't think for my self no more I gotta think for 2 I gotta think for this baby so am gonna get back wit him but any ways take care ma and be safe
 
BLUEZBAYBEH
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DATZ SUM GEWD ADVICE
 
stephanie
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WELL, ALL I COULD TELL YOU IS DAT YOU DONT DESERVE THAT TYPE OF TREATMENT. I KNOW IS HARD FOR YOU CAUSE U LOVE DA NI99A AND SH*T, BUT LET ME TELL YOU, YOU DONT DESERVE DAT SH*T. HERES A FEW REASONS WHY: 1ST OF ALL THAT NI99A WOUPS YOUR *SS, 2ND OF ALL THAT NI99A PREFFERS HIS FRIENDS THAN BEYING ITH YOU, AND 3RD OF ALL, THAT NI99A AINT GOT NO MONEY.... THAT NI99A AINT THERE FOR YOU OR YOUR BABY.... BELIEVE ME, THERE PLENTY OF GUYS OUT THERE THAT GOT THE STYLE THAT YOUR BABY DADDY HAS BUT AT THE SAME TIME THE GOT SOMETHING GOING ON FOR THEMSELVES.... UR STILL YOUNG, AND THIS IS JUST AN OBSTACLE LIFE GIVES YOU, SO I SUGGEST TO TO MOVE ON AND THE FASTER THE BETTER CAUSE LIKE DAT YOU WONT SUFFER AS MUCH
 
Alicia
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I luv this gangsta guy..and its hard cuz I know my parents aint gonna like him..i grew up in a christian home so all those things he does...smoking,sex,cursing,etc is looked down upon by my family..i think im really sprung over this guy...he is so sweet...i thought all thugs were the same..but he changed my whole perception.......
 
BLUEZBAYBEH
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AYYY MA I KNOW HOW DAT IZZ KUZ IM GOING THREW DEE EXACT SAME THNG SAME EXACT
 
Casper
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Damn homegirl thats crazy! dont worry though things are going to get better. At least you aint like all those other chicks who stay in the relationship. YOuu are thinking about your safety and the safety of your baby boy! Just keep your head up and everything will get better!!! SMILE NOW CRY LATER...F*CK IT WHY CRY AT ALL!!!
 
Crystal
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hey gurl damn thats really f*cked up look all I gotta say is keep yo head up dont let anyone bring u down like yo gangsta has and like yo dad has to!! I dont kno u but I kno that u diserve way better than that all chicks that is with a gangsta deserve better than that!!!sh@t they should be glad that were even with them!!!look im kinda with a gangsta too but hes in love with me or so he says because he says that im different im not like all them other hoodrats and yea its true but I dont know I will see what happens!!!but like I said dont let anyone disrespect u like that!!!lots of love ma!!!
 
lucky
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DAMN GIRL MY MOMS HAD THAT PROBLEM MY DAD NEVA QUITE HITTIN HER HE GOT LOCKED UP MY MOTHER TOOK HIM BACK NOW THERE DEVORCED IT DIDNT LAST LONG EVEN THO MY DAD HAD TOLD MY MOM IT WOULD BUT LOVE IS BLIND AND SOME PEOPLE DONT CHANGE EVEN THO THEY SAY THEY DO WELL MAKE A GOOD CHOSE OK
 
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hey wats up gurl just thought I would give u sum info I cant really inmaigen wat ur going through but all I can say is keep ur head up thing will work out in the end trust me and ur popps tryin to do that to u ya thats messet up u should move out or sumthing dont u have any more family out there that will help u but gurl its aight and sh*t I rember when my moms went through all that sh*t just the same but sum how she made it and oy gurl pray and stuff aight and if u should take ur man bac try mybe sh*t might change but only time will till I was just like ur man to my gurl keep selling drug and partying and sh*t and doing dumd sh*t and all that now iam alone I told her if I was a man I would let her go on her own I didnt want to hurt her anymore and stuff plus she had I kid and stuff I tryed my best but sh*t did work out and stuff so I let her go wit no prouble I had to man up. so just keep ur head up and sh*t and pray and u can make it through any thing peace
 
DiyMpleZz
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Hey I know wut ur goin through and wut ur feelin!!! i didnt know wut to do either when i had my son!! i am 15 2~~imma in love wit a gangsta but he aint locked up!!! imma sorry that u went through wut u went through!!my babii never hit me nd fo dat i am thankful!!! imma here fo u girl!!! nd i knoe!!!
 
BLUEZBAYBEH
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HAHAHA DAM I NEED UR ADVICE DOE FOR ME SHYT KUZ IDK WHO TA ACTUALLY GO TO KUZ NUM OF MUH HOMIES KNOW HOW IT IS TA GO OUT WIT A GANGSTA U THANK YOU KULD HELP ME???
 
xCHiNA4
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aww girl im sorry all that shit happend buh keep ur head up high and dont let no one tell you different
 
necia323
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hey gurl well dam thats hard but you know what im going trough the same thing not geting bit up but i have my husband locke dup too and if u love your vato go for it listen toyour heart every one tells me to leave my man but i cant i just hope he changes you know but only time will tell but get at me gurl
 
chulila
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You can be in love with this gansta that made you dream and since life has been real you know nothing is perfect and you have accepted its up and downs..but hitting and emotional abuse not even an animal should endure it. Break off and live and educate your self...GED..counseling but do not mention gang(to new friends)...and move away from old friends related to the gang..hide out and get your life on track...They will say you are a coward but many will say you are brave...I will say you are a person and a mother now that knows what is right and wrong and that makes you mature even if it feel scary at times...Hide out little as possible contact to old friends that are related to gangs so your business is not out and do for your self. Apply to city jobs. Get an apartment...go to a shelter and break off from all hurtful people and start new...Let time pass and you will heal...You will know. I give you six months and you will be in school and in your apartment if you listen...( from an ex foster child from hard times..I've been on my own for 25 years)
 
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dammm homegurrl i no how it i$ being in love with a gang$ta. im in love with one too. im only 15 rite now and he ha$nt hit me or eney thing like wats happened to yu but i no he want a bby and i want one tooh.
do u think he will be different after i have a kid wid him, like he ha$ control ova me cuhz i had a kid wid him? wat $huld i do.
n if u love him n really think he wuld change then give him a chance. n if he goe$ back to hi$ old $elf then leave hi$ a$$ N move on wid ur life, cuhz evrbody de$erve$ the be$t and u only grow more a$$ a per$on wen u let the pa$t be the pa$t.
but hone$tly if i wa$ in ur $ituation i wuld probably go back to my man cuhz im in love wid him $$$ooo much but that$ ju$ me. but gudd luck, wi$h u the be$t.
 
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Girl your situation sucks. I know that when a guy is locked up he has a new perspective on life nd he does change all hell want is to be with yyou nd your so. My bf rascal been locked up nd before id see girls allover him nd he wudnt stop em. Now he realizes I'm nt a one night stand nd I was the only girl writing to him nd showing him love nd he openly tells ppl he's on love with me nd that I'm his only number one nd I'm the only lady he wants to have a family with he went from this thugged out gangster to a big softy and I love that kid to death.
 


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