Terrified to wake up not knowing who I may face today,
So afraid to run off the room… so there on my bed I lay.
Scared to open up my eyes in terror of who I may see,
there’s only one being I trust now, that one being is me.
I toddled down the stairway of my vacant dark home,
Everyday became the same, and I’m all alone.
I can’t gaze at the outer surface, I can’t anymore see,
I just don't know what the hell is wrong with me.
I sit out of the sun, wondering what’s going on,
with all sensations… I feel vanished or gone.
My mind's eye wish to know what lives outside;
it’s so undue for everything I hold, to hide.
Though I can’t stand the wounds people cause,
And I can’t stand all this pain
though I'm sick of everyone being fake,
Sick of the amount of hurt I still have left to take
I won't let this happen to me again.
Today I will stand up and wipe away the tears
Today I will rub out all the hurt and fears
Today is another new page
Waiting to be filled with fury and rage
Fight is the only word that charms in my head
So I'll fight even though by now...