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An impossible love

And here is my story , that is very very complicated, but broke my heart into pieces and I dont know how to carry on with my life...
I am 25 from an Eastern European country, living in London for many years.I am came to the city years ago with my husband, for whom I"ve been married in the last almost six years.We have a beautiful daughter at the age of 5, who we both adore.My marriage has always been very very happy, we get on perfectly with my husband, we succeded financially, and careerwise throughout the years, and I have always been very happy and satisfied with my family situation.
Then, a year ago I got a new position in one of the leading world banks' HQ, in the city, and everything was going even more perfect until, I met this colleague, who shattered my perfect world, and challenged my heart. He is very attractive phisically, he is british fromPakistani origin, muslim...Everything he is, is totally unacceptable match for a woman like me, as my family background is christian ortodox(not that I am religious really), white and being with a muslim, in my country, is a big sin... Anyway, when he saw me, he started to chase me, mercilessly, and he was goog, the best I have ever met. He told me that, he is separated and has two kids. Then, I was in a crisis in my own marriage at that moment, and I just simply thought that it will be nice to have a friend like this to talk to, as the attraction was obvious, I didnt want to pay attention to it, as kept reminding myself that I am married and happy.But he swept me away, like a hurricane, like a storm, I tried to resist his love for about 6 months, but then I gave up, as I realised that the I felt about him, I have never felt towards anybody before. My heart was overflooding with love to him.Now the worst thing he ever did, was to win my heart, and then to tell me, that he is actually, living still with his wife, because of the kids, even though their marriage is broken, and he wants to leave her soon, and that he will, and he wants to be with me forever, and he wants us to have a kid, and all this things... He kept on saying all this and for about a year he proved his love with action, and can honestly say that, he was sincere in his feelings, as man's eyes cant lie... Everything was going well, yeah, this was an affair, we were both cheating on our partners, but this love was and always will be the biggest I will ever know. Then with the time going on, I decided that I cant keep on lying my great husband, and he desereve his chance too, with somebody better, I told my guy that I will take responisibility and will leave my husband, as my heart belongs to him, and I want to be with him. He said that, it is ok, and we should wait another couple of months, to pick the right moment, and then do it togehter, he will leave his wife and I will leave my husband. He even asked me where do I want us to live... As the time close by, he started acting weirdly, like not calling me, being scared, trying to avoid me, as just weeks before, he would sleep in the car in front of my house, wait for my husband to leave, wait untill I am ready, so he can drive me to work....just to see me quickly. I felt angry, betraded, lied to, used, I cried and I asked him why is he avoiding me, and hurting me...he sai then that he cant leave his wife, that he tried but she has threatened him that she will take the kids, and on on, and the guy said he loves me and always will and he knows that now, he has lost everything in his life, by losing me but he adores the children. I said that I understand, but that I will never forgive him for taking me so far, and alomst dropping me, at the end, for not having the courage to face, his promises towards me, for persuading me for so long to, leave my husband, because of him.
Anyway, after this, I kept talking to him and told him, that I dont mind him being married, as long as he is in my life and loves me all the time, as I was not looking for commitment or marriage, I just wantes to be free, and to be able to love him and have a normal relationship with him. Soon after that happened, he asked me out and told me that he will never let me go, and that he is soryy for hurting me, and that he will give a chance to this relationship and he loves me more than anything. And everything went excellent for two months, then it all started again, he stopped calling, kept saying that he is busy, and then I could not take it anymore, and told him that I am so hurt, that I am leaving him , and all this things, and I stopped caloling him, but it is really hard as we work at a same place and I see him every day, and the hardest bit is that he still loves me, I can see it, and he keep coming trought my office hundred times a day "by accident", keep bumping on me, he keep on watching me, and it si really hard, k because I love him so much, and he obviously do as well, but I dont understand why, he want it this way, why he is staying away...he said to me only, that he doesnt know what he wants, as at the moment the things in his home are better as she is really trying to fix the marriage...I said to him, ok, but what matters is who he love, me or her...he just keep on being quiet..
pls write me what do you think, this is the biggest love in my love and I really hope that it can work, I want it to, I am ready to scrifice everything to be with him, and would if he knew what he is doing, do you know guys, tell me what do you think, k give me advice, before I destruct my self, I dont eat, I dont sleep, I lost 10kg for a week I cant get a grip on myself, I'am really struggling.
HELP, HELP HELP PLS


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Sarah
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Look, you are lusting over him, and you have a good man at homes that knows you inside and out, and think about your kid, how would she feel without mommy and daddy not being together.If he loved you like you say he does he'll be willing to give up what you are giving up too,, he is a coward, and you my fall into he trap, maybe that is how he got his first wife love everyone and pray for all....
 
nengi
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nengi_weah01@yahoo.com
hello dear new friend
how are you today i hope that every things is ok with you as is my pleassure to contact you after viewing your profile which really interest me in having communication with you if you will have the desire with me so that we can get to know each other better and see what happened in future. i will be very happy if you can write me through my email for easiest communication and to know all about each other,here is my email (nengi_weah01@yahoo.com) l will be waiting to hear from you as i wish you all the best for your day.
yours new friend.
nengi
 
Sara
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I am in awe. I just don't see how you can say that you were so happy with your husband and your whole life? Obviously you weren't or the thought of being with another man would have never crossed your mind, right? Sorry if that is crude but its just my opinion. Like someone else said he's using you, he know's you'll be there to run back to when things are rough with him and his family. He doesn't love you. Stop letting him do this to you and try to get your happy family back...they need you ya know?
 
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nengi_weah01@yahoo.com
hello dear new friend
how are you today i hope that every things is ok with you as is my pleassure to contact you after viewing your profile which really interest me in having communication with you if you will have the desire with me so that we can get to know each other better and see what happened in future. i will be very happy if you can write me through my email for easiest communication and to know all about each other,here is my email (nengi_weah01@yahoo.com) l will be waiting to hear from you as i wish you all the best for your day.
yours new friend.
nengi
 
Sara
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I am in awe. Like someone else said he's using you, he know's you'll be there to run back to when things are rough with him and his family. He doesn't love you. Stop thinking about him and yourself and think about the family that you do have. Stop letting him do this to you and try to get your happy family back...they need you ya know?
 
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nengi_weah01@yahoo.com
hello dear new friend
how are you today i hope that every things is ok with you as is my pleassure to contact you after viewing your profile which really interest me in having communication with you if you will have the desire with me so that we can get to know each other better and see what happened in future. i will be very happy if you can write me through my email for easiest communication and to know all about each other,here is my email (nengi_weah01@yahoo.com) l will be waiting to hear from you as i wish you all the best for your day.
yours new friend.
nengi
 
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nengi_weah01@yahoo.com
hello dear new friend
how are you today i hope that every things is ok with you as is my pleassure to contact you after viewing your profile which really interest me in having communication with you if you will have the desire with me so that we can get to know each other better and see what happened in future. i will be very happy if you can write me through my email for easiest communication and to know all about each other,here is my email (nengi_weah01@yahoo.com) l will be waiting to hear from you as i wish you all the best for your day.
yours new friend.
nengi
 
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I recently lost my girlfriend...
(I actually found her dead with the needle in her leg and her eyes open)

Now, if I can move on and be strong, so can you! I know you can o.k?

Write me anytime for much needed strength


Peace to you...


{ o}====>

Cazzy
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nengi
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nengi_weah01@yahoo.com
hello dear new friend
how are you today i hope that every things is ok with you as is my pleassure to contact you after viewing your profile which really interest me in having communication with you if you will have the desire with me so that we can get to know each other better and see what happened in future. i will be very happy if you can write me through my email for easiest communication and to know all about each other,here is my email (nengi_weah01@yahoo.com) l will be waiting to hear from you as i wish you all the best for your day.
yours new friend.
nengi
 
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nengi_weah01@yahoo.com
hello dear new friend
how are you today i hope that every things is ok with you as is my pleassure to contact you after viewing your profile which really interest me in having communication with you if you will have the desire with me so that we can get to know each other better and see what happened in future. i will be very happy if you can write me through my email for easiest communication and to know all about each other,here is my email (nengi_weah01@yahoo.com) l will be waiting to hear from you as i wish you all the best for your day.
yours new friend.
nengi
 
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it seems like u really do like this guy, but u have to remember u have a child. what is best for him/her? u always need to keep that in mind. I think u should just stay with ur husband, tell him what happend, ask him to forgive u , it seems like the other guy is not worth all the trouble. u dont seem to be getting anywhere with him. I hope u the best of luck
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Hey hun, ok listen first off all if everyhtng with ur husband is going great and all then why did u put thius on urself, hun I am from middle eatern too and I am christian also, hun i'm so sorry to say this but muslims are not worth it, cuz muslim will always be a muslim, why would u ruin a great relationship with ur husband for this guy hun? hes not worthhh itt ok, imagine ur husband doing this to you b4 u even knew this muslim guyy how would u feell huh? I dont think u will be happyy hun, listen I really wanna talk to you about this so umm add me on msn if u can orrrr u can e-mail me at barbee_girl03@hotmail.com yalla byee
 
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hunny,i really want you too know that as I read through your story I shook my head no atleast 10 times I know It hurts I been through it too ! like the first girl, he is using you hes a male they only want one thing and they will say what ever they have to to keep getting it I had a boyfriend for awhile and he said he wanted me sooooo bad and he loved me he wanted to marry me (he too had a wife and kid) I was just his everything he said that he was going to leave his wife for me but then when push came to shove he couldent do it he wanted his child and she too said if they broke up forget bout the child! and he too loved his son more then anything in the world so he told me he couldent do it. And he too lived with her its just a game dont fall for it if he really loves you then you will tell him that he has to pick now you or her he can get custidy of his kid as long as he has a stabble job and a house! you dont stay together because you have kids thats not right why would you bring your kids into it if you dont want to be together then obviously you fight and kids can hear that no matter how quite you are and thats bull sh*t! as far as your husband goes you need to tell him whats going on he may leave you but if you love someone else then dont let him think that theres something that theres not your doing the same thing to him to what that guys doing to you and im sure you dont feel to good about what your going through so why would you put that hurt on someone you loved or once did look at the situaton and think your making the biggest mistake of your life you could lose both if you dont tell your husband the truth yes he might get mad but dammit girl what are you going to do if your not the first person to tell him and someone else does do you really think he will ever be able to trust you agein he loves you tell him now b4 you have noone at all, dont hurt him more then you already have if he finds out from someone else its going to hurt even worse just tell him
 
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sweetie this man is obviously treating u lyk a door mat and is walkin all over you!!! it will be hard but stop it and tell your husband and be faithful to him this can seriously emotional scar your child I know because my dad cheated on my mum causing them to get divorced causing fights etc if he really loved you he would of left his wife a long time ago and would of taken his wife to court and fought for getting custidy over his children your willing to sacrifice everything to a man who wont sacrifice everything for you im sorry if this seems harsh but its selfish its unfair to the child and to your husband who probably loves you with all his heart and soul and has been faithful to you this man seems really unstable and has turned your world into a nightmare this situation could get out of control and if you tell your husband he could leave you and take the child with him and imagine his p*or wife its unfair on her this guy cant keep doing this calling you then givin you the cold sholder and if you guys did get together and he left his wife do u think he would be faithful to you would you be able to trust him???? if everything was going great with your husband why did you put yourself in this position dont you find it unfair and cruel to be doing this your not only going to hurt yourself but the people around you!!!!!
 
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This is a case of Infatuation and Love mixed together. What you feel for you're husband and child is love. What you feel for this cowardly man is infatuation. As soon as you want to get serious and move in with him, he gets scared and starts avoiding you. This reminds me of when you get a snakebite. In order to survive, you must suck out all of the poison. So start sucking out all of the poison in your life, beginning with this guy. Whatever you do, don't start your affair with him again. Think about what could happen to both of your families if they found out. Don't let him fool you. Don't give into temptation. Good luck.
 
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I noticed your name and i think i know where you from. . .:)i am from there too. I want to talk to you because i know how hard is to have something like this on your heart and not being able to say it to anybody. You can e-mail me anckutza@yahoo.com
 
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nengi_weah01@yahoo.com
hello dear new friend
how are you today i hope that every things is ok with you as is my pleassure to contact you after viewing your profile which really interest me in having communication with you if you will have the desire with me so that we can get to know each other better and see what happened in future. i will be very happy if you can write me through my email for easiest communication and to know all about each other,here is my email (nengi_weah01@yahoo.com) l will be waiting to hear from you as i wish you all the best for your day.
yours new friend.
nengi
 
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ceau si eu sunt roman si vreau sati dau un sfat in primul rand nu cred ca il vei putea lua de langa sotia lui caci e evident din ce ai spus ca ii este frica iar pretextul cu copii e doar o scuza. iar eu cred ca te foloseste si a realizat caci ai aceptat sa te vezi cu el chiar daca nu isi va parasi sotia si stie ca ai face orice sa fi cu el. de aceia teas sfatui sa te mai vezi cu el doar in momentul cand iti va demonsta ca va face un pas serios in cea ce priveste relatia voastra. stiu caci nu e usor mai ales cand esti indragostit si chiar iubesti cu adevarat da aceasta e realitatea si nu e intodeauna cum vrem noi. cam aste am avut de spus ,daca teamsuparat cu ceva prin cea ce am scris imi cer scuze dar cam asta e parerea mea de barbat. sper sa ai noroc
 
Dayhna
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You poor thing! You are being completely used by this man. Yes, he may be gorgeous. Yes, he may seem sincere and be a wonderful lover etc.etc.etc. but I'm afraid that he truly only being driven by sex and your availability, beautifully enhanced by your trust/lust / willingness/ honesty. Why wouldn't he like someone like you? You're so THERE for him. And if you didn't know in your heart that he is a piece of work, you wouldn't be writing on this site in the first place!

While your marriage is obviously in trouble, I certainly would NOT recommend you telling your husband about your affair. Men tend not to forgive affairs and you could find yourself cut off from everything familiar before you know it.

My advice is: lose this bastard who is giving you the runaround. If you like sex with him, then fine - stay having sex with him. Just don't expect him to suddenly become perfect husband material.

Next: NEVER tell your husband anything about your life outside of the marriage, unless you're seriously crazy in the head. Keep quite about everything and continue to be careful to his needs.

There is a reason why you drifted away from you marriage. Look into this.

If you feel any love for your husband, tell him or show him. Get back into the swing of things.

If you don't care for your husband, but don't wish to upset your child's life, then do what you wish privately and discretely.

Just know this much - this man you are currently involved with will NEVER EVER commit to you. He already has your devotion and your sex - so what on earth else would he be seeking? If he genuinely loved you, your relationship would have proceeded along an entirely different footing long before now.

I wish you luck and strength through this. Take care, Dayhna.
 
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You know what? all guys are unsecured , they want this now and another thing later, if you really want to give up everything for him just do it, but remember one simple thing : LOVE doesn't hurt, REAL LOVE makes you HAPPY ALL THE TIME even in the worst of adversities , REAL LOVE makes you better, wiser, smarter. Its like many of the recent comments up, maybe this is LUST and no Love, maybe you want him for all the wrong reasons, think about it.
I feel you because I am in your position right now, "in love with and impossible" BUT thanks to this "Love" I am better, doing things that I was never capable to do, this Love is pushing me to be, finally BE me, okay I am not going to lie here sometimes he confuse me entirely , he is married, sometimes he wants to run away from the wife sometimes he loves her, and I don't get it! but I LOVE him and I don't want to destroy anything in his life I am not expecting him to get a divorce and marry me, I JUST LOVE HIM and that's enough for me.
Don't get tangle in his game, if you have the strength to take him as he is, DO IT with wife and kids and insecurities, just enjoy the moments together and keep dreaming , it will be better for both of you. The Best of Luck for you and take care of yourself please, not eating? I know the feeling , but you have to be okay if you want to keep on loving him right?
 


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