 | My patience has outgrown me throughout the years.
Any single act or word can frustrate me to the point where I go crazy …or maybe that’s already happened. Don’t know… Hate that feeling.
That feeling when you wake up from a really captivating dream.
Waking up is the hardest part to do: knowing that what you were fantasizing about was only a dream and can only happen in your dreams.
It hurts having such a brutal wake-up call into realty, realizing that we live in a world where the dreams, our dreams, can’t possibly come true.
Then there’s the complication of having to debate that we …or I, rather… am being selfish for not being thankful for this realty, for this life, and what I have been given.
Yes, that is pretty selfish.
Why do I have to want more from life and wish upon a star that things were better?
Why do I have to stress over happily-ever-after endings only happening in fairytales and movies or stories?
But… is it so bad to hope for more?
It’s saddening to have things so difficult.
But nevertheless, waking up is hard to do.
I mean, RIGHT when you escape the dungeon guarded by the monstrous fire-breathing dragon because luckily, your Knight in Shining Armour, your Prince Charming, was there to rescue you and sweep you off your feet, and he’s carrying you on his gorgeous white stallion away into his beautiful 128734879549804598034-room castle where you two live happily ever after, …you wake up!
Not fair.
It’s as if God is saying, “This is as good as it gets man, sorry. It’s a little taste of heaven, wait till you die.”
No, I don’t believe God would do something like that. Well …I used to.
I used to have this hope burning inside of me, urging me to keep motivated and to keep determined, for God has something better in store for the rest of my life.
I used to believe that He had this plan rewarded for me but only scheduled later in my life AFTER I prove him my patience, strength and worth.
Well, I’m sorry Jesus …but like I mentioned before… “My patience has outgrown me throughout the years.”
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