 | Submitted by Christie
This is a True Story. This is My story. This is my Life.
It all started in year 8, when i had my first boy freind. He was awfully shy, and i was too so we didn't do much together. He was oen of those "bad" type of boys and i knew it, but he actually wasen't " bad" at all. I was new at the school, so often i would ask him to take me around, he`d take me to class but wud be too shy to hold my hand. i hated it. We had no contact in school, we would walk pass each other like we don't know each other. On the first date he kissed me on the cheek, i actually thought we would pash or somthing but we didn't. After 3 very logn months, me and him had a big fight. it was about my best friend, he had hated her. Our argument went for hours and finally, i had suggested we split up for a while. we have never talked since.
After we broke up i was very depressed, i thought i couldn't live with out him. i needed him. for days and nights i had thought of him, and why we broek up. it was awfully stupid. we broek up cause he hated my friend. what the hell!! after weeks of wondering, i managed to force myself to ask him what i had always wanted to ask him, " do you still love me? ". he was with his group, and i managed to pull him over to the side and talk to him. i had asked him did he still have feelings for me, he gave me a straight no in reply. i was very dissapointed and walked off in tears.
i had finally realised that i should let go of him, and move on, and move on i did. i met this new guy at the school, it was the new year and there was alot going on, i hadn't really looked forward to yr 9 at all but i managed. His name was Danny. i had realised i had developed feeligns in him, i had talked to my best friend, Mel. Mel and i were very close, i had known her before i had even moved to her school. i had told her i had the hots for danny and she tried to set us up. but unfortunatly, i knew danny hadn't liked me back. danny and i would often talk on the internet but that would be it. Mel hadn't known who danny was until i introduced him to her on net one day. Something told me that instant minute that danny had a special feeling about Mel. i knew something would happen, and so it did. It was the day before my birthday and Mel had told me danny askd her out. i had broke into tears but had managed to say out " you two make a good couple" .. it was a joke. she had realised it wasn't funny because the boy i like had loved her in return, and that the only way they met was by me. it was a very disappointing yet sad moment for us. Mel had fallen depressed and had started to cut herself very badly. her cuts were very severe and they had hurt me deep down inside. i had realised she had liked danny back in return but it was me that was in their way. I had thought to myself over and over again for nights and had realised this should all come to an end. A good and happy end. I had dropped out of this circle of love and managed to make mel say yes to danny askign her out for the fourth time. They`re now going out and i'm happy and delighted for them, yet.. sad for myself. these days i couldn't look mel in the eye cause once i look at her, i would think of her and danny, and their hugs , and their kisses, and every thign that they did together, it had hurt. and it had hurt very bad. i couldn't take it any longer, i had started to cut my self, i had make sure no one had noticed, i didn't want mel to feel bad.
Till today they are still going out. It has been 4 months. i had realised one very important thing. It`s better to forget and smile, then to remember and cry. If one suffers the pain of 2 being in love, i personally reckon its worth it all. I now focus in school more and are gettign better grades then ever before. I'm happy and sad but i won't let sadness get to me. Just remember, why cry to live thru a day when u can laugh to live it the whole time?
i thank you all for reading this and am really happy to share all this with u guys. Thank You LoveLandia !
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