 | Hi again, I wrote the story called "Confused And In Love" a while back. This is a short follow up i suppose.
The boy i loved, Beau. We never got back together, it's now been a month and a half. However he did constantly tell me he wanted things to go back to normal, and he loved me as much as never, couldn't stand the thought of losing me. I was so confused, because he knew all along that all i wanted was to be with him again, everything i did proved that. All he had to do was.. be with me, and everything would be fine again.However last thursday night he came to my friends with me. We were the only people there (my friend was at a staff dinner until 10pm) We were talking and i thought everything was finaly going to go back to the way it had been. And we ended up having sex (For the third time since we broke up).
After it i realised something was wrong. I asked him if he was in love with someone else. Finaly i got out of him that he loved Rose (the girl from my first story who was my best friend) I was devestated. I got everything out of him after that. It was such an emotional night. He was hurting as much as i was. That made it even worse. He was crying so much, so i couldn't hate him. I wish i could, but i loved him so much still, even after all he did to me.
You see it turns out he was cheating on me the whole time we were dating. He was sleeping with her before him and i even had. And the night we broke up he started dating her.
The worst thing was that i was so suss on their friendship all along, and they made me feel so silly, saying they were only friends, and only ever would be.
Well he'd been cheating on her and leading me on. And now i know, it's finished. I won't let him make me into some fool like he has been. I'm going to move on.
I guess in a way it's a relief to know everything. I don't hate either of them, i love him, so i can understand why she does so i can't make myself blame her. and because i love him i can't hate him for it. I'm going to be friends with them both, At the moment all i want to do is show them i can be the bigger person and not act like a heartbroken fool. Rose was my best friend last year and i'm not going to lose that. And i want them to have a good relationship, and perhaps this way i can keep and eye on them and make sure they're good to eachother. They both mean alot to me.
And on another note, an ex of mine, Adam, is back on the scene. I've had a soft spot for him since the day we broke up. I think i hurt him alot the first time so i have to be careful this time around, but since i last dated him i have grown up alot, back then i didn't know the value in a true relationship. Now i know it's all i want. And i believe he can give it to me, as long as i can continue being true to him and myself. Anyone who is interested in any of my story feel free to email me or add me to msn. My email address is below. I'm a total romantic sometimes and love to hear about anything sweet. Thanks for reading my story.
Submitted by Natalie Cox
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