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We can feel happy or sad

It depends upon our views

Optimism is a safety pad

When comes a sad news

We can turn easily mad

Or decide to wisely muse

Shock or hope can be had

Both we can surely produce

If we worry, our life turns bad

If trust and faith, we choose

To our peace, we then add

Fearing is of negative use

It stops our feeling glad

If our mind, we abuse

We to loss become dad

God surely rescues

If hope and trust we clad.

mvvenkataraman

Empty, numb cold all  alone

No one to talk to, not even on the phone

Time passes, feelings never fade

Emptiness grows, leaving life in the shade.

I'm numb im life less, im cold and weak

So much so, it hurts to speak

I'm afraid to trust, not allowed to live

Locked up in my home with nothing to give.

It's not your fault, I abused your trust

Let you down, fucked you over but by needs must.

I cant make this right, the damage is done.

But I miss you dearly my second mum

Stuck in the middle, you had to choose

I know that now, I was bound to loose

But fighting so much, against a few

Has left me weak and needing you.

I guess what I mean, or want to say

Is I miss you dearly in every way. 

I don't expect change, I just needed you to know. 

I love you .. . 

I'm so  sorry. . . I never meant to hurt you.

Xx 

Love can build or break

Love can cure or give ache

If one's kindness is fake

Soon apply the brake

If one kindly proposes

And the other refuses

Wisdom, if one chooses

Peace, it then produces

Love is to heart a fuel

No love is indeed cruel

Love's power is dual

1 is loyal, two, no duel

Love multiplies courage

And ends one's rage

It heals at every stage

Is it not an advantage !

Love does a miracle

By removing obstacle

it helps us finely tackle

As we never at all buckle

Please love always

On all the coming days

Love has God's grace

As peace, we all face

To love, go ahead

With guts in head

Let kindness be said

Let hatred fall dead

When are affectionate

We cancel an ill-fate

Make mood truly great

By opening heart-gate

Love contains a remedy

To end any kind of tragedy

To offer solace it is ready

And rescue from a jeopardy

Love surely heals wound

By saving at each bend

It can wonderfully mend

Upon it, we can depend

mvvenkataraman

I see you there, laying in bed, staring straight into my eyes, directly at my soul. I see you biting your lips, it’s a signal of your desire for me. I walk over and bend down to kiss you, our lips entwined. My hands wander around, stroking your breasts and making their way down to your pussy. I start rubbing in a circular motion, only to hear your slight moan. I stop and look at you. I can see it in your eyes, you want more of it. I kiss your neck, then your chest, to your stomach..Once I reach your panties, I’ll bite them and tug them off. I look up and see your face so eager for more. I give it a lick and see you shiver a bit. I continue and begin swirling my tongue against your clit. And then I stop, seeing that you began moving your body to my tongue. Your clit is dripping with juice and I take one final lick to clean it up. I pull out my cock, climb on top of you, and insert it slowly. You wrap your legs around my back as I thrust in and out....I hear your panting and I stop for a second and you whispered in my ear “more…” I started back up again, slowly, but increasingly faster and deeper. I could hear your moaning over the throbbing of my beating heart. Beads of sweat drip down from your face. We both sense a feeling of euphoria, your mouth gaping open and we both climax. And there we are, laying together, panting hard, Sleeping the rest of the night away until the sun greets us with sun rays...

If kindness is missing, only doom. we will be kissing

If we can't lovingly tolerate, we then reach a sad state

If we fail to reciprocate love, life, we easily complicate

If we don't adjust and love, we will get no one's trust

Always if we doubt, our peace of mind will be out

Once we miss a kind person, we create hatred-prison

If we fail to give back a smile, our life will surely fail

If anger is by us used, we are to a demon reduced

If we foolishly drop a proposal, our grief is colossal

An understanding wife removes in life each strife.

mvvenkataraman

"Her World"

She sees the world but does the world even notice her? Her words are loud yet only she can hear them. She feels alone in a world filled with people. Through her eyes you can almost feel her sadness. She pleases others but who would make her feel at ease? Year after year will anyone understand the way she thinks?

Her innocence was taken but her pride still remains. She sleeps in sorrow as her heart fears of what life brings tomorrow. The words were loud and within the clouds there was hope. She held on until her hand let go. All that was said and all that was done ripped apart and shaded her sun to the dark. It's cold. She feels numb. Sometimes she feels lost in a maze.

With all of her grace, she only wished some things could be erased.

Thanks so much for the invite!

All my life, I've been praying for that someone who would love me as I am. Who would understand my desires, encourage my efforts, and share my dreams.

All my life, I've been dreaming of finding that someone. Who would listen to my thoughts, respect my silence, put no limitation to how far I should grow as a person.

All my life, I've been waiting for that someone. Who would keep holdin' on when I need to be held. Who would let go when I need to be alone.

All my life, I've been hoping of finding that someone. Who would let me be my own real self, yet accept and love me just the same. Who would show me the joy of sharing oneself with another in the name of love.

Yes, I've been waiting for this person for so long. And I knew that night at that moment when our eyes first met. You are the one whom I've been dreaming for the past years of my life.

I want you to know that you,too, are loved. You are loved for who you've been in the past, for who you are right now, and whoever you will be in the future.

Yes, you are loved more than you'll ever know. Thank you for being mine. Let's praise God for each other. I'm sure glad we've met.

Take a deep breath

close my eyes.

Try not to remember how he felt between my thighs.

His strong chiseled body gleaming in the moon's light. 

I notice my pulse begin to rise

I fight with all my might to remain in control though I've gone amiss

Remembering his soft touch

His supple kiss. 

Inhale slowly.

Deeply exhale. 

I've been committed 5x

and all spoiled a great romance.

I don't want to get committed again

and I don't want to live with you either.

At this point in my life,

I don't want to own someone special.

I just want to enjoy one.

I don't want to be your everything.

I would much rather be that somebody.

Who you see once or twice a week.

And who makes you feel good.

Would that be okay?

She deserves more than I could ever give her.
There was a time where we shared our love for each other.
I did not protect that love. I abandoned it. I lost her.
We had something special. Our love was pure. Innocent.
Somewhere inside me I knew what was the right thing to do.
Yet, I failed. I only thought for myself. I was selfish.
She gave me her trust. I took advantage. I was wrong.
All this time my true love was in front of me.
I blinded myself. I saw all but didn’t see her.
She waited and waited some more.
Through the years her love never faded.
There was hope in her heart.
My heart was empty.
She wanted to fill that hurt.
People say in time we eventually learn from our mistakes.
She will always be the one I failed to keep.
The one I let go.
When all this time she was just trying to build our home.

I cannot trust you.

Do you think that I don't know what is going on.

I cannot trust you.

Like I don't know you, how long have we been together?

I cannot trust you.

I am not stupid, I just don't care anyone. You don't respect me, so I will not respect you.

Ans still, I cannot trust you. 

We are together for the 'family' that we have but we are far from in love.

I am yours when you want people to see me being yours, yet you do not include me in all aspects of your life.

So, I cannot trust you.

I see the people you talk with, I see how you do not include me in your social life.

I see how you leave to talk on the phone or how you delete messages from your phone.

I will not trust you.

You always wonder why I do not answer your phone or look at your phone.

It is not because I hope to never find anything, it is because I know what is there and I am tired of accidentally finding things.

Yet, you want me to trust you.

Just as I get comfortable with you I see messages like, "hey boo" or "I miss you too," with new names and old names...Bonnie, huh.

I want to just snap on you, raise my voice, scream "DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH THIS HURTS!" 

You will not change and I will not forgive you.

The devil stays busy, so should you.

     His intentions are to rob and that is what he will do

He feeds your fears and insecurities

     Slowly showing you misconstrued images of how things could be

Steal your joy, and love, and peace, and wealth

     Stealing so much of you that you will not even know yourself

When you have figured out what is wrong

     It will be nearly too late, so much lost and so much gone

But even then, at the darkest times, when you cannot feel

     The light of God will help you heal

You must follow his path and ever stray

    All the while remembering that he is the light of the day

There's a moment

A feeling

A falling

A breaking in my mind

I've looked and looked

Wandered and wondered

And I can not find

They say there's a light

But I'm losing this fight

Not sure I ever had it

A thousand lifetimes

I've imagined

And not one

Is etched in stone

Love can soothe our emotion

And give us the best elation

Having a kind relation

Is a lovely possible sedation

When love is in our possession

We succeed in our mission

As love gives us permission

To reach our destination

Love gives us real protection

It makes us do the best action

It gives to two great satisfaction

Its greatness is just no fiction

Love can give maximum cooperation

By avoiding in life possible separation

When love is in its noble operation

Joy to enter makes a preparation

Love puts to heart a healing lubrication

It creates in life a comfortable occasion

Peace of mind, only love can sanction

Love makes our soul normally function.

mvvenkataraman

#love, #heart, #strength, #joy

You think I care whether you see?

I couldn't give a rats ass what you think of me

I come here because it has been my place

Long before I ever saw your face

I wouldn't marry her

To spite you, or out of hate for you

If you must know it ain't got shit to do with you

I've finally figured out

I'm much better without

If you must know?

Its because I'm happy in ways I never imagined

And at peace with me and all I have and ever will be

I go to work, and sometimes I hate it

But I do it for her

No its not always flashy

Romeo and Juliet

Dumb shit

Like how I was at 18

But I've come to realize

That was a lie

From the moment I met your eyes

#idgafra

You are right, I hate you.

But the why... well, that just isn't true.

When it comes right down to it

All my pain rests on your unforgiving shit.

How I loved you, and was unwilling to let go until it was too late

And I lost the only one that you have ever truly shown more hate.

More hate than you have shown me.

You post your underhanded shit on here, just to see.

But the thing that hurts the most is that I do.

I see it all, too.

You want to marry the woman you lie to

But you want me to stop you.

You try to nudge this door again, once more.

But it is still firmly bolted to the core.

Make your decisions but stop living in the past.

You have one life to live, so live it fast.

Before you know it the best thing is far away.

And you're lefting hating someone else at the end of the day.

And, before I end this letter to you.

I want you to know what I think is true.

You will never be happy because you dont want to be.

But I feel like I am starting to finally find me.

Maybe the reason I ever met you...

Was to become the person that fell in love, too.

While that's vague and unclear, that's okay by me.

I won't let the secret out before it's just meant to be.

#dont, #care

There's a ring in my pocket

A thought on my mind

All the barriers I could find

Long tumbled and over grown

I guess all there is now

Is to ask it

#love

I walked about my second home

A town I had come to know

With friends and laughter

And echo's of yesteryear

I didn't shed a single tear

Here and there were memories

Ghosts only I could see

Its been too long

Its way too far gone

Things I can never have again

I know why, I know how

I know, I know, I know

Years later, I'm still bitter and angry

Confused and sad

I know its all in my head

For all it matters it might as well have been a figment of imagination

And even as I know that's not true

That it was the most important time of my life

All it is now...

Is ghosts in my head

#life

Easy...true relationships should be easy and effortless as it begins to grow.

As you move through your relationship, nurturing begins.

Love is the sunshine, trials is the rain, lust is the strength and trust is the protection.

As at team both people must work together to make things grow.

Each day that passes, the relationship grows stronger and lives grow together.

What was once two is now one and as days to months and then years, nurturing continues and love grows more.

Let your love stray not for that is the pruning and poisoning within a relationship.

It will kill the protection, strength, and sunshine leaving only the rain. With only rain, the relationship will die.

Don't let family, friends, or others prune or poison your relationship

#love

I don’t think anyone could ever love you as much as me.
The truth is…you’re my weakness…
Many people look up to me.
Some I know and others I will never know…
But I do know I must stay strong for them…
Your words mean so much to me
that it replays in my mind and there’s no period.
I repeat the same sentences that made me fall in love with you.
I think of you often…I lie...I think of you everyday…
The seconds seem to be hours and the days seem to be years
when I am not with you.
The biggest regret I have ever done is leaving you behind…
When my heart told me to stay…
My mind confused it with thoughts of
“where would you live? How would you survive?”
The heart slowly was battling these thoughts
and for some reason I heard my voice say “good-bye”
I know you don’t see me in the same light
that is why I will always remain in the shade.
The lost shadows that are never noticed and ignored.
I don’t know if you know this
but when I get emotional I like to look outside the window and view
“life” people, trees, birds, and the sky
for I know that somewhere in the world someone is doing the same as me.
I have smiled for years and lost my heart along the way.
I covered it with hope…
When internally I was breaking down…
I have traveled great distances
and along the way particles of my heart can be found…
Many wondered…many questioned:
How such a person as myself could not have someone to share this type of love.
I found myself questioning the same reason.
Maybe I was meant not to love but to inspire people to love.
I had a moment to share my feelings with you…
That moment we don’t always get.
People spend a lifetime for such occurrence.
Some never get to experience it.
I was very lucky to have my moment of clarity when I found you.
Your words captivated me and your presence gave me ease.
Do you remember when I first told you that I love you?
It meant the world to me…
I came a long way and even though I didn’t take you with me.
I took the most precious thing from you.
When the world around us was silent…
Just you and I…
I looked at you…you smiled with thoughts wondering…
For the first time I felt serenity.
Internally healed.
Alive again.
I felt you.
I would like to believe in that moment
our hearts were beating at the same time.
We were connected.
Like the feeling of the breath before the kiss and the touch of your embrace.
Erased everything I ever knew.
Within that moment I knew nothing but you…
You were my world…and everything I ever believed in I saw through you…
It was you that brought me here.
I had you…
Even for just a moment.
We had each other.
I left my heart behind but my memories traveled with me.
I cherish those thoughts…
Remember when you wrote my name on the stone wall?
You were being silly but I took a picture of it.
I imagined you writing my name on your heart.

#stone, #wall, #love